I know, I know...

it has been a while.
but i must say i am barely surviving now.
i thought i was going to DYING when i was going through life guard certification
but i managed.
and PASSED! :)

then things relaxed and now i'm dealing with pains of moving on.
what do i do?
well, it is my opinion that I am screwed over.
Germany and I are enemies and it will never change.
it all started 3 years ago!
but that is whatever. it's past
but now it's messing with my head AND my future.
I have to finish somethings in order to complete my admission process but every time I call for assistance i get the same answer.
"you need to do this and that..."
"but it all requires you to be here"
UGH!
i'm sure I have time since I can't do that for a while but there is the outside force of family.
sure I need it done and I need this and that...
but I can't until i get there or convince them there is no other way.
maybe a semester off will do me some good.
but I really wish I wouldn't have to

all in all I think I just need to dance.
RIGHT?
ok. I just said that to make me feel a little better :)
Stress will surely be the death of me.
so i might as well make the best of it!

STRESS QUOTES:

“Stress: The confusion created when one's mind overrides the body's basic desire to choke the living daylights out of some jerk who desperately deserves it”

“In times of great stress or adversity, it's always best to keep busy, to plow your anger and your energy into something positive.”

“Stress is nothing more than a socially acceptable form of mental illness”

“Stress is basically a disconnection from the earth, a forgetting of the breath. Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. Nothing is that important. Just lie down.”

haha!
and these are just a few of the good ones i have found.
I feel much better now.
so I guess i'm off to sleep :)

COUNT DOWN:
35 days until dad gets here
40 days until '09 graduation!
[29 school days]

***still 8 months until i'm NOT engaged, married or otherwise ;)***

ily.<3