UGH-ness.

so this has been a really hard week.
i start finals next week so i'm trying to get my life together.
i'm actually doing homework but it's causing me to spend every
minute of being in school in a class room.
trying to pass this school year and get on with life.
ok, so now i have school pretty much in order but there are a ton
of other problems that have come up recently.
like for instance,
my PASSPORT.
its missing.
can you tell i'm freaking out and may not be able to get to the
states anytime soon?
i can't even go to luxemburg to visit the cemetery.
COLLEGE.
i can't register for a math class on polytech so i am not considered
full time so i couldn't get my plane ticket even if i HAD my passport.
SEMINARY.
lots of work to do for that but no time to do it. but i will be doing
it as soon as i get this all out of my head.
TALK
talk for seminary graduation.
haha. couldn't say i didn't see it coming. i REALLY did.
FINALS.
gotta pass, gotta graduate.
GRADUATION.
further away so we could have more seats.
why are we still only getting 5 tickets?!
just to fit those living in my house i would need double that.
but i have more than that coming.
ANNOUNCEMENTS.
still don't have them done. still don't have them sent.
do i even want to do them anymore?
that is the question.
PAINS, PAINS, PAINS.
i'm slowly dying in the process of being sooooo stressed out.
can someone help me?
can anyone save me?!

nonetheless.
12 days until GRADUATION.
7 days until SEMINAR GRADUATION.
?? days until i find my PASSPORT.
?? days until i get out of COUNTRY.
?? days until i DIE.
1 second before i go INSANE.

-live.laugh.love.
*when all is said and done, REMEMbER ME.

I know, I know...

it has been a while.
but i must say i am barely surviving now.
i thought i was going to DYING when i was going through life guard certification
but i managed.
and PASSED! :)

then things relaxed and now i'm dealing with pains of moving on.
what do i do?
well, it is my opinion that I am screwed over.
Germany and I are enemies and it will never change.
it all started 3 years ago!
but that is whatever. it's past
but now it's messing with my head AND my future.
I have to finish somethings in order to complete my admission process but every time I call for assistance i get the same answer.
"you need to do this and that..."
"but it all requires you to be here"
UGH!
i'm sure I have time since I can't do that for a while but there is the outside force of family.
sure I need it done and I need this and that...
but I can't until i get there or convince them there is no other way.
maybe a semester off will do me some good.
but I really wish I wouldn't have to

all in all I think I just need to dance.
RIGHT?
ok. I just said that to make me feel a little better :)
Stress will surely be the death of me.
so i might as well make the best of it!

STRESS QUOTES:

“Stress: The confusion created when one's mind overrides the body's basic desire to choke the living daylights out of some jerk who desperately deserves it”

“In times of great stress or adversity, it's always best to keep busy, to plow your anger and your energy into something positive.”

“Stress is nothing more than a socially acceptable form of mental illness”

“Stress is basically a disconnection from the earth, a forgetting of the breath. Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. Nothing is that important. Just lie down.”

haha!
and these are just a few of the good ones i have found.
I feel much better now.
so I guess i'm off to sleep :)

COUNT DOWN:
35 days until dad gets here
40 days until '09 graduation!
[29 school days]

***still 8 months until i'm NOT engaged, married or otherwise ;)***

ily.<3

Friends && Joy

What can i say about friends?
they are there no matter what.

Flavors come and go but friends are the flavors that never leave your mouth.
they are the mouth wash to comfort you after you have failed with your latest flavor.
what can i say, i'm fond of my mouthwash. i use it OFTEN
:)

never the less, i am still grateful for even my five minute friends.
here is my week in pictures &&what a great week is was!

[[SEMiNAR WiTH KATELYN]]


[[LUNCH WiTH OUR TRiO]]


[[AFTER SCHOOL]]


COUNT DOWN:
8 days of spring break LEFT.
17 days until SPAiN.
62 days until '09 graduation!
[39 school days]

.:off the record:.
-approximately 87 days until i leave Germany.
-approximately 8 months until i'm STiLL NOT married.
-approximately 1 minute until i lose my mind.
-approxiamtely 3 lines before i tell you goodnight

Live.Laugh.Love
GOODNiGHT <3

Mi Familia

My grandma is living with us now and mann is life FUNN :)
everything is clean and my brothers are almost whipped
mwahahaha.
I wish everyone could see this,
and i must say my grandma is the most fun to joke with.
not like my mom,
i can't say BUTT around her
:D


Now on the other hand,
MY BROTHER!
now in Germany and it's a WAR ZONE ((literally))
so i just want a picture with my brother to put on a blog.
make the moment a kodak one.. you know?
well, it turned into a wrestling match and things went CRAZY!
-the way i like it :)-

[[the pic before the war]]


[[preparing for battle]]


[[the fight]]

((mwahahahahaha))

[[the defeated]]


I'm sure I had a lot to talk about in this blog before I went to go get that picture.
but now I'm beat :)

ily.
<3

The "ultimate" -SEN!OR.STATUS-

So, I must thank Sister Frandsen for all the hard work and grace she gave me.
She made me look good even with crazy hair that wants to stand on ends.

First, OUTSIDE on a beautiful day...
[[Sara and I]]



[[alone]]


Then, we had more fun indoors...
[[nice]]


[[cap]]


and LAST we showed off the uniform...
[[top picks]]


[[goodbye Cheerleading!]]


Graduation is coming fast and you better believe I am EMBRACING it :)
Thanks to everyone who helped me get this far.
ily.
<3

THE UPDATE

so i ponder what to write about...
what should i write about?
the only thing i needed to do was ask Erik
:)
"what should i blog about Erik?"
-"how about the dance on Friday or how much you like stars?"-
LOL
thank you ERIK!

THE GOLD AND GREEN BALL!
[thuh gohld ānd green bawl]
DEFINITION:

1. Excuse for elderly people to join the youth dancing around in a crowded gym for three hours.
2. Excuse for Teens to REWEAR their prom/homecoming dresses.
3. A place to watch young people do new steps while the others are stuck in "the glory days" with their dance moves
4. Refreshments anyone?
5. A chance for not so old YSA's to be a part of the youth
6. A place where you can see all those REALLY cute guys from various places that you NEVER see.
7. The excuse to dance with people from rival schools, it is forbidden elsewhere unless you are HOOKED.

EVIDENCE:



THE DATE:



THE BEST:



too bad Katelyn didn't come.
she would've had fun!
to do list:
1. get Katelyn to come to movies with me, *cough, and *cough!
2. Save money for college
3. LIVE UP MY LAST DAYS IN GERMANY =]


COUNT DOWN:
4 days until spring break
23 days until SPAIN
68 days until '09 graduation!
[43 school days]

Live.Laugh.Love